Sex On Fire

So, i have less than a month before I start my last year of high school. Everyone is so scared, but honestly, I don't know what to feel. Sure.. I'm scared because of SPM, but I'm also excited. Excited to finally leave school and venture the world on my own. I can't wait to do new things, meet new people etc. BUT there's also a part of me that feels sad. Not because of the friends I will be leaving, I trust that we'll keep in touch very often.. but its my family. Now that, mom and I are alone, whats she gonna do when I leave to study? I've always only had her, beside me, all the time, whenever I need her, and I'm always there whenever she needs me, and it's gonna be hard for the both of us. Which is why, I've only considered studying in the country. I'm happy to study in the country.. I can do my traveling later on. =)

Anyway..... PHUKET! WAS ROCKING, AND SEXY!. HAHAH..
It was fantastic. Coincidentally, we went during the Phuket Carnival 2009, so there was a huge stage on the beach and there was a beach party every night! Booze everywhere, dancing every night, it was much much more than I bargained for. and the foreign guys were soooo hot! Hahaha. They weren't the regular white guys, there were guys from all over... like, Spain, Brazil, Austria, Sweden etc. And at lest 8 out of 10 of them had a body to die for! So, basically, I just sat on the beach all day eye-ing all of them. Heheheh.

CHRISTMAS. I can't believe its just around the corner. Doesn't feel like it at all. This year is so different, mom and I didn't want to put up a christmas Tree, we figured, it would make the holiday an even sadder occasion than it already is for us. Honestly, I'm not even looking forward to going to Malacca. I mean, normally, I would be jumping up and down counting down the days to Malacca. But, now, it doesn't really mean anything to me. I haven't gone Christmas shopping, I've had the time, just haven't had the mood. What to buy for mom? Any ideas??????????


CHEERS!

To make you feel my love

its unfair how we have to care about one person more than we care about ourselves. thats what you think, but the truth is, you will always love yourself more. you can't hurt yourself, well, unless you're like insane, or emo, then yes, you probably can hurt yourself, but then again its only to make you feel good rite? so bottom line is, humans are naturally selfish.

yes, i had a boyfriend previously, for a very short span, but now its over. Concluding that i'm single again. yay. but i'm not hunting for any guy at the moment. i feel, that love will come, when it comes. and if you try to hard, it'll never happen. so its all good.

lets see. holidays are boring. i don't know what to do. like, when i wanna go out, i call a few ppl and they can't make it, then i'm too lazy and just purely frustrated. i wanna get out of the country for a few days. find something new.



Cheers!

Another one bites the dust

Got a new hair do. I DID NOT COPY ANYONE! My hairstylist said I should try something new and this is what she did for me. =)
But I must say that I like it.

El Cantante

Since my cbox has been spammed, bugging me to update, I shall update, this poor pathetic blog of mine. I shall start with telling you what I've been doing. Just to summarize it up... my daily routine.

Wake up, go to the restaurant, eat, still at the restaurant, eat, still at the restaurant eat, start drinking (still at the restaurant), eat again, drink more, leave the restaurant, get home, eat, sleep.

So, you see, there's a lot of eating involve, therefore its safe to say that I HAVE PUT ON WEIGHT! and its only at my belly which really makes me look like I'm pregnant. This has now motivated me to start exercising again, which is why I'm gonna be exercising starting tomorrow. I've gotta take my fat dog for a god damn exercise too. I haven't taken him in such a long time, he looks like he's gonna explode at any moment!

On the other hand, I got some good news. I will be taking my braces off in December, which is a plus, since I've been with it for 2 damn years! Finally I'll be able to smile without looking like an idiot.

Anyhoo.. can't decide if I should go to the mist on Friday. Hmm.. OH! My ex schoolmates have organized a reunion next week. Yup, its mainly cause, we lost contact of each other, and just got in contact through Facebook. No Surprise there. Well, we've all decided to head to Mid Valley and meet at 11.30am! When I found out, the first thing I told them was, I'm gonna be late. If you know me well enough, you should know that during the school holidays, I am unable to attend to anything that starts before 12pm at least.

anyway, till next time. hmm.. i'm hungry.


cheers!

Artista Bar and Restaurant

For those of you that don't know why I'm always spending time at this place called Artista, it's because my mom co-owns the place. So, its like my new hang out spot. Yup. It hasn't opened yet, we were unsure of the dates, but I think we've finally decided to open on the 6th of November (Friday) So, those of you that wanna come, give me a call k? :)

Its a Bar as well as a restaurant. Located at Tropicana City Mall. Food is modern European but for lunch time Local food will be served. Only for lunch. There will also be shisha at the open area outside. So its really a cool place la. There is live music every night. I will post the band list soon.

So, come check it out! :)

Cheers!

Magic!

So, a few of my friends ask me whats the deal with my love life? I said nothing. I'm happy being single. And for the first time, these people gave me a response that I've been thinking about over and over again. They said how they used to think that too, but when they've actually found someone thats worth all their time and attention, it truly feels much better than being single. (These friends were girls) And the continued by telling me that you gotta do whatever it takes to get the right guy, even if it means dating 2 or more at the same time just to compare and see which one suits you better. The first thought that came to my mind was CHEATING? And I'm very very against that after what has happened to me. But then when I got home, I was thinking about it, and the word dating popped up. Dating does not mean being in a relationship rite? Dating is like that road to being in a relationship. So thats technically not cheating rite? Then I thought how I have really bad luck with guys. -_-"

Until now, I am still thinking about it. This is probably the longest time I've been single, and I know why I am. I am TERRIFIED. Not only am I afraid to get hurt again but also because what if I have forgotten how to date someone? Haha. I know it sounds stupid, but seriously, I haven't done this in a while.

Well here's a confession of mine, I am happy being single, but when I see couples around, I wish I has something like what they have. I know, I know, it sounds lame, and sad or whatever you wanna call it, and you've probably never seen this side of me. But seriously, I gotta do something about this.

Anyway....... so this year I have attended quite a few weddings. And I don't really like attending weddings, but I do enjoy the dancing, the free drinks and the food, but the 'for better or for worse' and the 'i do's' I can't stand them. All that lovey-dovey part, eee. Which is why I have a hard time imagining myself ever doing such a thing. IF I EVER GET MARRIED, I WILL SKIP AS MUCH AS THE LOVEY-DOVEY PART AND MOVE STRAIGHT ON TO THE PARTY. For real, I will do it. Haha.

Got to go...................
CHEERS! :)

New Divide

So, this fella... has no idea I like him la. We hang out, talk a bit, texted for a day or so. It was all good la. Until he mention about his girlfriend la. Haha. I felt like such an ass and quickly pulled myself away from liking him. Yup, thats that. We talk occasionally now la.. but I don't like him anymore. =) I'm happy.

Moving on, I've been really sick for the past two days, feeling better today. I missed Rachel Lim's b'day party! =( Very very upset bout that, and i'm very very sorry I couldn't make it. I am currently craving for some fried stuff..specifically some yummy roti canai with lots of curry, or nasi lemak with plenty of very pedas sambal. Yes I am craving! I've been eating plain soup for two days, and haven't had much of an appetite, and now I just wanna eat something simple, very unhealthy and extremely yummy! =D

Anyway.. my b'day is on saturday. Having a party on Friday. Its sure to be a major hangover the next day. Gotta go to the restaurant on Thursday night to sort some things out, so I think I'll go for Wednesday add maths tuition since I might not make it for Thursday's class.

Gotta go... gonna makan.

Cheers!
=)